I am quite done mentally with grad school. I have reached a stand still as far I'm concerned with motivation. I am simply doing what is required and basically nothing more when it comes to doing graduate work. I somewhat regret this current status because there are many things that would helpful if i could apply myself more but I am just really sick of having to do school work and neglecting my school responsibilities.
I can't pin point anything that would make teaching so much harder than student teaching aside from the amount of time that I have to spend on my graduate work. I think I am really ready to commit my time to my work and I am not being given that opportunity yet because of my commitments to my graduate.
So how can I do this? Suggestions would be welcome!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Do you ever really get to that place where you have lots of time in your life free??
So as far as my life goes right now I am too busy even to think ahead more than hours at a time. I work on a day to day, hour to hour basis much of the time.
Twice this week I had multiple experiences of running out of either my house or my classroom after printing a grad school assignment in order to get to my college in time for the grad class to turn in the assignment I had just printed. I have always been a procrastinator to the fullest and a last minute person, but I honestly am in awe of how stressful grad school work is as far as trying to stay on top of it.
I am hopeful that after may when I am done with grad school I will have more time to relax and be less busy and stressed, but then I thought about it more and... will I really ACTUALLY have more time or is that an illusion??? Will I just be rid of the grad school work only to take on a big project at work and be busy all the time then. In a sick way do I like being busy and stressed? My sick answer to that question is: probably. :-\
I think that is why I don't generally like complaining about stress and I just deal with it, because in some sort of twisted way I seem to enjoy being immersed in activity and expectations that I am striving to meet. It is a crazy life. Is it a good thing? Or should I think about becoming de-stressed in the future???
Twice this week I had multiple experiences of running out of either my house or my classroom after printing a grad school assignment in order to get to my college in time for the grad class to turn in the assignment I had just printed. I have always been a procrastinator to the fullest and a last minute person, but I honestly am in awe of how stressful grad school work is as far as trying to stay on top of it.
I am hopeful that after may when I am done with grad school I will have more time to relax and be less busy and stressed, but then I thought about it more and... will I really ACTUALLY have more time or is that an illusion??? Will I just be rid of the grad school work only to take on a big project at work and be busy all the time then. In a sick way do I like being busy and stressed? My sick answer to that question is: probably. :-\
I think that is why I don't generally like complaining about stress and I just deal with it, because in some sort of twisted way I seem to enjoy being immersed in activity and expectations that I am striving to meet. It is a crazy life. Is it a good thing? Or should I think about becoming de-stressed in the future???
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